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saturday, september 23
Life Is Bittersweet
The older I get, the more I believe that sadness is a way of life, just as happiness is sought after in the form of love, friendship, financial and personal fulfillment.
I'm basically a happy-go-lucky kind of guy. I figure that I can spread the love, spread the cosmic, positive vibes along to everyone I meet. But sometimes this isn't possible. This makes me sad, but it's just the way life is sometimes.
But I can do the best I can, and it's all that CAN be expected of me given the circumstances, within this finite shell of a human being.
But I like an awful lot of people out there, lots of friends and acquaintances who've found the time to meet me and get to know me a little, if not at least briefly. And I thank you for that friendly connection. It's always been quality versus quantity for me, and that's okay. Quality time!
Anyway, life is short and we all struggle like an Olympic hurdler, one hurdle at a time, until we reach our destination. It's all hills and valleys, and I understand that now. It's okay, it's cool...
Sometimes I feel the expression, "Go with the flow...", has more worth and meaning than it's been given credit for.
4:00 PM
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It's raining outside and I can hear my neighbor's windchimes. It calms my mind, my soul.
12:54 AM
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It's raining outside.
12:42 AM
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In A Sentimental Mood
Actually, I'm feeling very melancholy and sad right now. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm such an idiot sometimes. I need to put things in perspective.
I repeat... I am such an idiot...
Okay. I feel much better now that I've gotten that out of my system!
Cyn revealed in her latest entry about Josh dating a girl who already has a boyfriend.
Yes! I can relate because back in my college days I was so infatuated with this young dance major. She was also a music major like myself, and so we ended up in a couple of theory classes together. She liked me... a lot! But, here's the catch. She was living with her 35 year old boyfriend!
So, we would date and have a lot of fun. But reality would set in every time I'd drop her off at her place. It was a very weird experience for me. She just wanted a "buddy", while I wanted much more than that. Sometimes her boyfriend would greet us at the door. And she'd always give me a kiss on the cheek. The whole situation was unbearable. I was the one who broke off the relationship because I couldn't take it... not being able to get any closer to her while she maintained her distance.
Anyway, this was all before I met the girl who would end up becoming my wife. And it seemed like so long ago... a far, distant memory.
12:35 AM
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friday, september 22
The Evening At Valentino's
I don't know why, but Valentino's was TOTALLY packed tonight! Was it to celebrate the coming of Autumn?
And even better, we had a VERY responsive audience! Let me tell you from experience. Most gigs I do, I'm background music. And Valentino's is no exception. But tonight we had an audience who appreciated what we did, and that's very, very nice. We had fun. Not that I don't EVER have fun when I play music. It's just nice when the audience claps and cheers enthusiastically.
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Valentino's has been getting a lot more people in there lately. I wonder if it's because of the good review in one of the local websites. Hmmm...
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Tonight we played a standard called, "Here's That Rainy Day", and lo and behold, we glanced out the window and it was raining! Anyway, this song is so beautiful, it practically brought me to tears. There are so many special classic songs besides "Autumn Leaves" or "The Shadow Of Your Smile"... these special little songs just make my evening... so beautiful!
11:31 PM
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Autumn Is Here
There's a sudden change in the weather today, as if Autumn has finally arrived. Usually, there isn't any significant seasonal changes in San Diego, but today is a noticeable change from last week. It's overcast and cool out, whereas a few days ago we had 100 degree temperatures.
I had to cancel the Uptown Boys television appearance scheduled for next week on KUSI-TV. It was set up to promote our Tio Leo's show but THAT was canceled because of a double-booking bamboozle.
Now to promote for The Catamaran show next Wednesday. I need to make a trip to Kinkos.
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Tonight is another gig at Valentino's, and again I'm looking forward to playing jazz and standards with Donnie. |
2:03 PM
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Yesterday was the four month anniversary of this weblog! And looking back, I really wrote a lot of schtuff! How prolific can that be?
Anyway, I've really enjoyed this immensely, and no doubt I'll continue on writing here. And I've had a few readers write me to let me know that they read me. Thanks!
10:40 AM
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Now to take care of some business on eBay. A lot of my auctions ended today!
9:09 AM
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I was up early this morning. But then again, I had a decent night's sleep for a change.
8:04 AM
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thursday, september 21
I've been watching much of the Olympic Coverage tonight. It's great to watch. I love the Olympics! And can't wait till Track and Field starts....
10:53 PM
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I'm tired!!!!
4:12 PM
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Fairbanks Ranch
Well, it was just as expected. The ultra rich of San Diego live in Rancho Santa Fe. But this gig was actually in Fairbanks Ranch, the ultra rich community next door! It was a fun gig, and the old ladies loved us and want us back. I got some lovin' in the form of hugs! Hmmm... potential sugar mamas! I know, I'm bad!
3:53 PM
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Rancho Santa Fe
I have three consecutive days worth of gigs, starting today at the Rancho Valencia in Rancho Santa Fe.
This women's organization is putting this luncheon together and they've been really looking forward to having us play for their event. This could lead to some great gigs in Rancho Santa Fe.
The next two gigs are going to be Friday and Saturday nights at Valentino's. I'm also looking forward to these gigs, and Saturday my friend Pat will be coming down from L.A. for business, and he wanted to get together for dinner. We're trying to get the other "virtual" friends to join us. We'll see...
6:26 AM
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What's Your Flavor?
Okay, you have to try this and let me know. Supposedly, this test determines what your personality would taste like.
Here's my flavor:
Mmm ... peppermint! Crisp and refreshing, you're the flavor of candy canes and after-dinner mints ÷ everyone's favorite comfort candies. If you were a season, you'd be winter ÷ bracing and energizing, but cozy, too. Your honesty and forthright personality make people feel like they've known you forever ÷ they can't help but be drawn to your sweet, fresh nature. Perhaps a little old-fashioned, and occasionally shy, you're generally happy and well-liked. Traditional and invigorating, you're a truly tasty treat.
1:53 AM
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wednesday, september 20
Following The Regimen
I've been doing pretty good this week as far as following a regimen. Yes, leave it up to the Olympics to spark a little inspiration toward a goal. I really admire the athletes and their commitment to excel in their sport, and to "go for the gold".
I've been practicing a lot more on drums lately. Which is good for me. I'm starting to get on a roll (pun intended) with my daily drumming regimen.
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"What on Earth does this bad boy DO when he practices on drums?", you say. |
Well, without boring anyone, I basically practice the 26 standard rudiments that I'd been taught by my drum teachers since day one in elementary school.
Aside from the standard rudiments, I practice to a metronome. And I spend a lot of time "improvising" several routines so that I'm ready for drum solos.
And, I'm suppose to have an aerobic workout because drumming is a very physical instrument and one must have a certain level of endurance to play for 4 hours at a club and maintain the same energy level the whole night. So, I'd been running and walking this whole week, taking it easy to avoid injury.
Things are going good so far this week, and as long as the Olympics are happening, it's an easy "spark" to inspire me to get better at what I do. So... we'll see how this goes after the Olympics are over.
9:54 PM
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A Rest From Caffeine
I just realized I hadn't had a single cup of coffee (the caffeinated kind) in three days! That's amazing for me, considering I'm a big, big coffee drinker. Well that's okay. I needed the rest anyway.
So, this morning I went down to the local watering hole (you guessed it, Starbucks) and I splurged... I got me one of them Cafe Mochas... grande size.
And for once I finally asked the lady behind the counter what was actually in a Cafe Mocha. And now I understand. The Starbucks recipe for a Cafe Mocha is a double espresso with chocolate and cream! Jeez, no wonder I'd been "bouncin' off the walls" every time I had one of those Cafe Mochas.
I always assumed a Cafe Mocha was just regular coffee and mocha. Hmmm... now I know, and now I will drink those in moderation.
5:11 PM
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Cascading Style Sheets
I spent much of the afternoon "tweaking" this site because I had accidentally deleted my template on the Blogger site!
What a scare!!!
And so I DID find a backup file, but it was one of the older ones. And so the process began to try and piece everything together again. And now it's done!
The good thing was that I played around with my CSS template and redid some of the text elements to where I finally liked them. I think it's looking pretty nice now. What do you think?
3:18 PM
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Age Of Empires
Last night I played Age Of Empires on the computer. It's been awhile since I've played it, and it's one of those highly addictive games. I'm pretty good about it now, since I had to "wean" myself off of the game a while back.
10:51 AM
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Teri is back from her vacation.
10:43 AM
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Ikea In San Diego
Wow! I'm blown away! They've finally opened an IKEA store here in San Diego, and opening day is today!
10:29 AM
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tuesday, september 19
I like stargazing. Maybe I'll do some stargazing tonight!
4:44 PM
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The San Diego Natural History Museum website is one of my local favorites. They have an exhibit that's all about Bears!!!
4:00 PM
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back pedaling, forward motion
I've been going through my own archives lately. Boy, I've written a lot of sh*t!!! Okay, now I'm sort of going through a self-analysis mode. Why do I write? Why do I keep doing this?
Last night, my wife was sort of joking about me putting all this effort into my blog. But there's a part of me that needs to write. I just have to express myself through writing because it feels good, actually. It's my own form of self-therapy.
Cami mentioned something about going through her archives and just seeing what she had done on a particular day. For online journalers, there is a distinct advantage to "referencing" your life. And it's nice to know what you had done on any given day.
Lately, I more or less had converted my blog into some hybrid journal of sorts. Well, that's okay with me. If there's a way to do something slightly different, then we should go for it. I think hybrid is a great word. To me it means improvement.
Cyn had made some interesting comments in her journal that made me really think:
I can't believe i've been rambling for over 6 months now. and i find it even harder to believe that you are reading my shit.
No, this will not go on forever. but i love jaycine.com. and that will exist in one fashion or other for a very long time...
After this note she ends with a photo of a beautiful sunset. And this paints a stroke of sadness from within. And I imagine someone riding off into the sunset.
I guess all things do not last forever, especially the good things. But for me, I will continue to write in one form or another as well.
It's just something that needs to be done. That's all...
9:58 AM
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on being a parent
Cami had some nice thoughts about being a Mom. I think it's true that there are certain things that "kick in" once you find out that you're going to be a parent.
Even before the child is born, it seems that parents go through some sort of "nesting" ritual, preparing the nursery and just fixing the place up for the coming arrival of the newborn infant!
But there are also many things that parents learn along the way as their children grow. "Teach your parents well..."
When my wife and I had our first child, we went crazy with the home improvements! We had new carpeting put in, I myself installed new tiles in the kitchen and dining room. I also tiled the bathrooms too! And, we turned one of our rooms into a full-fledged nursery. I painted the ceiling into a blue sky with white puffs of clouds! The center light in the ceiling was transformed into a bright sun.
Yeah! We were a bit fanatical about our first child. But when our second child came, we were much more relaxed and it was a lot more fun.
Actually, our second child was born twenty-two minutes after we arrived in the hospital. We just barely made it to the delivery room when her water broke just as she sat down in the hospital!
2:00 AM
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monday, september 18
a pill for anti-writer's block
Looking back at the week from 09/10 to 09/16, I realized that I was pretty "prolific" in my writing, and if you will recall (especially Cyn), I had a serious case of writer's block a month or two ago.
6:52 PM
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more yosemite photos
Check out day three of our Yosemite trip.
3:18 PM
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los angeles traffic
It took Pat two hours to get to work today. That's double his usual commute time! Sorry to hear about that, Pat. I DID hear about the bus strike going on. I wish you better luck in getting home!
1:29 PM
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knowing real pain
My heart goes out to Kaycee today. She's going through a tremendous amount of pain, and I feel for her.
It makes me feel ashamed of myself for dwelling on my trials and tribulations, when someone like Kaycee is suffering through cancer right now.
I will pray for her!
Kaycee's Mom has a companion site called Journey Toward The Rainbow.
12:05 PM
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hills and valleys
I'm feeling so much better now. I'm not sure why I was so depressed earlier... perhaps I was just exhausted from yesterday's hectic schedule.
I'm feeling a little more at peace with myself.
12:34 AM
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sunday, september 17
I decided to take down the sunset photo I've had in my blog for ages, and try one of the newer sunset photos taken recently. Let me know what you think.
9:40 PM
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i've got the blues
I am feeling very depressed right now. And I'm not sure why... maybe it's the "post Borders show blues"...
9:25 PM
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I'm trying to catch up on my Yosemite project, at least get the next day up on the site.
9:22 PM
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watching the olympics
Tonight was the first night I actually got to sit down and watch the Olympic coverage on television. And I watched the first ever Olympic triathlon with great enthusiasm, being that I used to really be into triathlons.
I used to train and do triathlons when I was younger. This was before we had our two boys. I simply don't have that kind of time to train for triathlons nowadays. Back then I just trained to keep in shape and to help my drumming endurance... never had any intentions of competing seriously... not that fast.
But my schedule used to be running Monday, Wednesday and Friday, with a long run on Saturday. Then swimming Tuesday and Thursday, biking to and from the municipal swimming pool. And a long bike ride on Sunday, and if I felt energetic, I ran on Sunday too! This kind of schedule is great if you're just a married couple with no children. Today, this kind of schedule would be impossible to maintain.
Well, I was totally surprised that the Canadian guy had won. He had made this last minute surge toward the finish line, outsprinting the Russian to take the gold.
I was sort of in tears when the Canadian guy, Mark Whittfield, broke down sobbing while the Canadian national anthem played on. He was quoted as saying, "my only reason for coming here to Sidney was to hear the Canadian National Anthem", and with that, I was touched by the moment. An underdog who beat out the best that day to win the gold medal. I think that's the most touching and memorable thing, when the "underdogs" win the gold. The "cinderella story" in real life.
8:59 PM
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rise and shine
I was more tired than I'd realized, just now waking up from a two and a half hour nap! Surfing the web earlier this afternoon I decided to lie down for a minute. And now here I am... I'm still feeling tired, though. Not refreshed.
4:59 PM
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aftermath
I am much too tired to add anything to this blog right now... perhaps later today.
12:12 PM
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borders books and music
The band played a free show at the Borders Books and Music in Carmel Mountain yesterday at 1pm.
It turned out to be a good show, despite the fact that our vocalist didn't arrive until the closing part of our show because of a flat tire. We had to scramble to switch our song list around. But I guess things worked out well in the end.
Our regular bassist didn't make it, but we were able to get our former bassist to take his place.
I was a bit scatter-brained during the entire Borders show. Dealing with the Borders event coordinator, paying the musicians, and wondering where our vocalist was sort of made the whole thing a little stressful for me. But all in all, it was a fun event and I really enjoyed the acoustics in this particular Borders store.
I also was able to meet Cami in person! What a pleasant surprise to meet another San Diego online journaler. I couldn't thank her enough for coming down to our Borders show.
Later on in the evening, I played another gig with Donnie Finnell at Valentino's. It was a good night and quite busy for a Saturday! We had Earl on saxophones and I dig his sound. He's a cross between Paul Desmond and Stan Getz, and he gets that nice, breathy sound out of the sax which I really love. All in all, the gig at Valentino's was cool, and everyone was talking about the computer chip millionaire who waltzed into the restaurant for dinner! Hmmm... the computer chip millionaire didn't even tip us... but that was because he's Scottish and he requested us to play a Scottish tune for him, but we didn't know any Scottish tunes! Oh well...
12:34 AM
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